In God's Power, Not Micayla's

Another way of saying it is "through God's power".

What happens through God's power?  Everything.  

Everything we are searching for in this world {success, love, wealth, freedom, time} comes to being through God's power alone.

This is a profound and necessary lesson college has taught me.  And honestly, it's one I've had to learn many times over.  And even more honestly, it's one I'm still learning right now. 

If your life is anything like mine, it is likely messy, confusing, and filled with uncertainty.  

My natural response: get a good holt and try to force control over everything I can so that I can make my life "successful". (You have to read that with a mean face to get the full effect...)

The correct response: well, not that... like I said, I'm still learning, but the following is what I've learned so far...

It starts by understanding and accepting, the truth of who's in charge here.

You know that old, comforting saying, "Everything that happens had to go through God's hands to get to me"?  Usually it's used when something bad happens, but I think it's also true when we desperately want something to happen and nothing does...  I believe that God's hands act as a filter on my life, which is both comforting and sometimes incredibly infuriating...

But there have been several points when I've found the bottom of the fall and I realized I had two choices:

  1. Stay collapsed in a heap of self-pity.
  2. Find strength in my Heavenly Father's protective answer: "No." 

God doesn't say, "No" just to anger us and watch us squirm like a bug on our back.  He says, "No" to protect us from what we aren't ready for, and to grow us in that time of waiting. 

Many times in true Micayla-fashion, I fought back.  I did everything I could to change the outcome, and found that I only ended up more tired, more frustrated, and more heart broken.

And then what happened? Well, when Israel tried to be right with God on her own, pursuing her own self-interest, she didn’t succeed... The ‘self-interested Israel’ became thick-skinned toward God.
— Romans 11:7-10 (MSG)

(Yeah... so the Bible literally says exactly that... sometimes I know God is calling me out.)

But if we can't force life to happen on our own terms and for our own self-interest, than what can we do??  

I'll let God take this one:

And sometimes I have to call myself out... "Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by  proudly  or  anxiously  trying to run the parade." (Romans 3:28)

And sometimes I have to call myself out... "Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade." (Romans 3:28)

  • Believe that God loves you and is working for you: "When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn't do but on what God said he would do." Romans 4:20
  • Love God and let Him call you to His purpose: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose." Roman 8:28
  • Trust and embrace God and His Way: "This is why the fulfillment of God's promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does." Romans 4:16
  • Trust God some more: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5
  • And trust Him even more: "Scripture reassures us, 'No one who trusts God like thisheart and soulwill ever regret it.'" Romans 10:11
  • Finally understand this: "Everything comes from him; everything happens through him; everything ends up in him. Always glory! Always praise! Yes. Yes. Yes." Romans 11:36

That last truth is worth reading again.  As a girl who likes to run her own parade, this is one of the hardest things to accept.  That my strength is not enough.  My smarts?  Not enough.  My plan?  Definitely. not. enough.  

There, right there is where I crumble and right there is where God picks me up. 

The first time this happened to me was the most amazing, freeing, and humbling experience of my entire life.  Finally accepting that life is hard and confusing and more than I can control released my life from my prideful grip and gave God room to work.  And when He started working, the things that were impossible to accomplish using my power, suddenly happened while I was at my weakest.

Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
— 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 (NLT)

When I am weak, then I am strong.  Not in my power, but in God's power.  

My prayer is that you (and I) would no longer need to find the bottom to give God our lives and room to work in them.  That we would acknowledge God's authority and accept his protective "no".  That our first reaction to a "no" would be to believe that God loves us and trust that He is working for us, to love God in the midst of the struggle, and to ask Him to use our lives for His purpose.  That we would lean on His strength in our weakness and lack of understanding.  That He would use His power on our behalf. 

 

And He will, because He really, really loves us.

M